A sad end to a fascinating twelve year journey, 11 of which were pretty awesome.
The last year I have not been a good reef keeper. Things did not turn out the way I wanted right from the move out of the old house and through the whole last 14 months. I feel terrible about the lack of proper care failed to provide the animals over that time. Many perished.
I all too often have let that bad feeling further propel me down a spiral of shame and neglect for both myself and my animals.
At least it is over now. I am really trying to feel and focus on the positives this journey has provided me and having gratitude for it all. If I must be honest it is really hard because there are a lot of negatives and sadness and regret as well that can overwhelm me and almost bury the good stuff underneath the shear weight of it all.
The education and the relationships I have gained through this club are priceless. I will still be around since I am still a bucket boy by day (maintenance dude), but I won’t have a tank of my own so I won’t be as active and able to spread the corals around like I have tried to while I could.
Thank you to everyone for everything that contributed to this tank and my experience. Words do not suffice